Found this pic today over at Backyard Missionary.
It's just a picture sure to offend some, make some angry, hurt some and make others laugh.
But as I was making pancakes for my boys this morning I thought how well it shows our fallen, human nature.
The past year has been an effort to change myself (and have Father change me) from the religious "Church Lady" that I had become. But something about this picture plagues me. Will I end up changing one thing to only to turn into something more ludicrous?
From Church Lady to anti-institutional jerk?
From Church Lady to emergent jack ass?
From Church Lady to I have all the answers now - just follow me?
From Church Lady who trusted too much to one that trusts no one.
From Church Lady who at times led people by manipulation to one who no longer leads people anywhere.
You can just see the t-shirts can't you?
Not that I have met any of those. Nor have I picked that flavor up from you, whom I read. I just know my own propensity to want to have THE answer and being so proud.
See, I hate this area of not knowing. I can float along here for a while but to never really know - to never have The Plan still drives me crazy.
But then maybe if I never have the plan, maybe if I never really know what Father will do in the next year or next week I will avoid growing into the man in the picture...looking more ridiculous and being more dangerous to myself in what I have become than even in what I was to begin with.
In my old life we were encouraged to come up with our goals for the new year. My goal for this year is to not become a religious caricature of the man in the picture.