Friday, March 29, 2013
We say we want to be out in the world but sadly many of us only have friends and acquaintances that are just like us. We surround ourselves with ourselves.
By the way, I'm not saying if you have the picture above advocating marriage equality that you are not a believer. I'm just saying that it is probable that we are insulating ourselves a bit too much inside what is comfortable if no one on our list of friends is throwing this up this week.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Today on Facebook, Stephen Crosby said this:
One of the problems in "ministry" as one gets older, is that you have to come to grips with the fact that, unfortunately, people actually believe the stuff you taught them when you were crazy!! You can't be upset for people for still hanging on to garbage you taught them, after you have "moved on!" Someone once said: "I used to "kill" people over things I don't even believe in any more!" Ah . . . God, you truly put your treasure in "clay pots" . . . crazy clay pots at that.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
My blog roll is not as large as it used to be. (I need to go though those at the side of my page and clean up my old blog roll) Many of you who wrote then, quit like me. Life happened to some and they quit. I grew tired of the tone of some and stopped reading. Some took off into other directions and I am so glad for them.
But others sprang up and took their place. I love the voices that I read. I seem to be able to feel connected with people as I read what they write. I love the inner thoughts spilled out onto this interweb thingy.
One of those authors is Addie Zierman. For most of her posts she takes a phrase most often used in evangelical Christianity and writes about it in the most open and usually profound way. Her post today (God-Shaped Hole) was brilliant and makes me wonder if I should just stand aside and let those of us with a real ability say it better.
But really, if you don't already have her in your reader then please put her there and go back to read her old stuff too. Like this amazing piece - An Open Letter to the Church - How to love the Cynics or this one from a few days ago - you worship people might like this - Audience of One.
Other authors I am appreciating:
For a true take on the Grace Message: Escape to Reality
For brutal honesty: Jamie the Very Worst Missionary
And a true Elder of the Church: Sword of the Kingdom
What/who are you reading now?
Monday, March 4, 2013
A close friend asked me (again) the other day if I was going to write on my blog ever again. I dodged the question and did not respond with anything of value to his question. But I have thought on it a lot in the past few days.
Just this morning I read a post from a dear girl who is at a training camp on the other side of the world. I think it is a YWAM training. She was eloquently describing what she was learning and a bit about the teaching that she is participating in.
She described that she is in her 7th week at this camp. Last week was on the Father's heart. This week is on Lordship. I found myself wondering how those teachers had the nerve and confidence to stand up in front of these young adults and help to shape their view of the Father.
And it finally struck me what my problem is with blogging my heart and thoughts now days.
I'm afraid I will be wrong.
See, for so long I was wrong about so much. I was wrong about church life and practice. I was wrong about not only my view of God but what I taught others. I was wrong in part with how I raised my children. I was wrong in how I manipulated each and every relationship I touched.
Previously, much of this blog was about deconstruction. It was about pointing out where I and others were wrong. It was about putting a stop to the abuse that I had participated in. But very little of what I remember writing was about what I believe now.
See here is the problem. For everything I believe there is someone to say that I am not seeing the whole picture. For everything I think there is another way to think about it. For every way to look at something there is another way to see it. For every way that I look at scripture there is another theologian who disagrees.
Heck, I am afraid to say that broccoli is good for you because of the studies that I'm sure are out there that say it will kill you in some horrible way. How then can I say that God is like this, or Jesus meant that or here is what I think Scripture says on this or I think you should raise your kids like this.
I find myself wondering how can I speak into a world that is so filled with everyone who knows for sure that they are right. (And they just might be)
And so my fear silences me.
But here is one thing about me that I know. I HATE fear. I loath it. Whenever I see it I want it dead. Whenever I sense fear in me I want to conquer it. It will not rule me.
Therefore I am going to write a bit here again. Maybe I'll write about something I am learning. Maybe I'll pass along something I'm reading. But I'm not going to let myself be silenced out of fear that I am not completely, 100 percent right.
You are welcome to follow along again. Or not. I'm going to write for me.
Conversations, as always are welcome.