Thursday, October 16, 2008

Marbles in My Mouth



I feel like I have marbles in my mouth.


It used to be easy to speak "Christianese." But words mean a lot to me and I just can’t seem to spit out sentences using the words that I have always used.

Before, I would say simple sentences such as;


“Today at church I really enjoyed the worship.”


But when you don’t believe that church is that time on Sunday morning when believers come together for teaching, singing and tithing and worship is much bigger than a song you might sing, I find myself in trouble…. verbally that is.


Now I find I have to speak in complex, seemingly befuddling sentences such as,
“Today when we….um… got together with….you know…. a bunch of people that love Jesus at…um… the building down the street I really enjoyed the time they…ahhh…. devoted…(deep breath).. to singing songs that…ummmm…. told Jesus how we love him.”


Sometimes it is really hard as I trip over my words and decide how to say something that used to be so simple.


Best Friend just shakes her head.... And probably mumbles under her breath, "Bless her heart." (She is from the South after all.)

11 comments:

Katherine Gunn said...

I understand. There are so many "stock" phrases that I just cannot say anymore...

co_heir said...

How about, "Hey, the singing was good today." :)

Barb said...

Katherine, we should make a list!

Co_heir, that one is good but only if you say it with your best Kentucky accent...more like "Heaaay, the saanngin was shore good tday!"

Joel B. said...

It's because of things like this that I also deal with, that have cause a few other people (especially my wife - LOL) to say that I'm too complicated. :) I think about the times when that is said about me, and I honestly think that I'm not 'complicated,' but rather I'm doing what you're talking about here - I'm trying to find new ways to say things other than in the "simple" Christianese language.

There are soooo many ways in which my mindset has changed, and I've found that things that are actually very simple to me are very complicated to others because of all the religiosity that has to be broken down in order to explain my simple thought. It's exhausting sometimes! :)

Katherine Gunn said...

Joel, that is very well put.

Ruthie said...

Your Best Friend lovesssss you, Bless your heart.

And she is also very grateful, every day, that you've stood with her (and sometimes carried her, sometimes kicked her in the seat of her pants...) for almost 20 years.

Gee, we're older than dirt!!!!!

Always,
Your BF

Erin said...

The marbles thing must be catching, because I have it too.

Tera Rose said...

THis is a GREAT POST! I can totally relate! I so over think EVERYTHING and how it sounds...and often I make more of a mess than I needed...but I just want to be clear...and not crazy; but end up somehow sounding more crazy...

LMAO...love the post.

Tera Rose said...

THis is a GREAT POST! I can totally relate! I so over think EVERYTHING and how it sounds...and often I make more of a mess than I needed...but I just want to be clear...and not crazy; but end up somehow sounding more crazy...

LMAO...love the post.

Cindy said...

I agree- great post! I'm still in the IC and cannot use the words anymore. I tend to go short, sweet, and vague, "it was fine." My brain goes blank when I know what I'm expected to say but won't say. So, essentially, I duck and run. :-)

Molly Aley said...

This post made me laugh! I sooooo relate!!!!! :)